Amanda Joy Papo- My First Blog
* (I am not a writer but hopefully you can understand ;) *
Point 1. Here's why I decided to start a blog:
* (I am not a writer but hopefully you can understand ;) *
Point 1. Here's why I decided to start a blog:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j9ClHvjJqWE&feature=youtube
Enough said? I think so
- I TELL IT LIKE IT IS!!! You want honesty? YOU GOT IT!!
- I am really good at manifesting what I want! I AM A GO- GETTER!!
- I believe there's s a solution to every problem and I stay positive!
Things I am going in my first "blog":
1. LITTLE BIOGRAPHY About me!
2. MEN and Commitment!!!!
3. Hoes and Karma (j/k bout hoes)
4. Current Perspective on life
5. Quotes
PART 1:
What I've learned for myself this past year is that men are in no rush to commit. It's either they fear commitment or they are wasting your time. If you don't speak up for what you want then things will never change. When we recognize how easy it is to avoid these games we can stop and move forward in our own life. It will always be difficult to follow the rules but I learned from recognizing what you did wrong and staying in the moment you can get through everything. Men are horrible with their relationship titles. They are scared of commitment, bluntly said. Men love to wait as long as possible to make it official. I feel as if men don't even understand why we want the title. Unfortunately, I have met very few men who have appreciated me or have wanted to be in a commitment with me. I use to believe that having a boyfriend was a necessity in everyday life and I never knew such important facts till the last year. It has taken many heart breaks, tears and MEN to have come to these conclusions. As you get older you spend less time dwelling on men that don't want you in the now. Yeah, it's hard to always go by this because us ladies have such high hopes but in reality?
HE"S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU!!!! REMEMBERRR THIS!!!
Also, do you ever notice how everyone is so desperate to be in relationships? What do I believe this creates? Loss of identity, loss of independence, and loss of the real importance of what a relationship is about. I think girls can get soo wrapped up in the attention of a guy. Now I am not saying relationships are bad by any means, I would love to find my counter part sooner than later. (been over single life since I was born) But my realization was that the only person you should give most attention to is yourself. We tend to loose fact of the people in our lives who have really been there for us. The goal of a relationship is to have two individuals come together and each bring their own flavor.
HE"S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU!!!! REMEMBERRR THIS!!!
Also, do you ever notice how everyone is so desperate to be in relationships? What do I believe this creates? Loss of identity, loss of independence, and loss of the real importance of what a relationship is about. I think girls can get soo wrapped up in the attention of a guy. Now I am not saying relationships are bad by any means, I would love to find my counter part sooner than later. (been over single life since I was born) But my realization was that the only person you should give most attention to is yourself. We tend to loose fact of the people in our lives who have really been there for us. The goal of a relationship is to have two individuals come together and each bring their own flavor.
PART 2:
THERE SOME HOESSS IN THIS HOUSEEEEEE:
I have dealt with the most ridiculous shit this year!! Girls are crazy and I mean crazy... I promise to whoever is reading that I am a good person and if I do make a mistake I always have the best intentions possible. I really think you should know how evil bitches are in San Diego!! Out of RESPECTTTT for them I will not use their names but oh boy, watch out! I would describe the first girl NOW (as in present) as someone who has lost herself in another guy. It evidently seems to be a very controlling and drug abuse relationship. She use to be a free spirit, wild child, friendly to all but.... N-O-T A-N-Y-M-O-R-E....
DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA (NEVER CAN ESCAPE)
DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA (NEVER CAN ESCAPE)
To sum it all up: The relationship changed her and she became someone else.. Her temper was horrible and she had no consideration for others. Screaming, loudness, coke, Ecstasy, pills , banging.. WHO KNOWS WHAT WENT DOWN WITH HER BEHIND CLOSED DOORS.. We had lived together a year and we had built what I thought was a friendly relationship. We were not the closest but we had fun together and were ultimately, I thought there for each other. Out of no where she decides to move out because she had some held in hate towards us and our "dirty" household. I can honestly say I think she just wanted to hate us. She gave us 13 days of notice and became the most awful person ever. She said hateful things, caused scenes, made a mess and had no respect for the house we were going to stay in. I'm going to be completely honest, we were very close to fighting.
(side note: super forgiving and super trustworthy tends to get me in trouble)
I decided to write her an email saying that I did not want any more problems and I just wanted a successful move out, I wanted her to remember the good times we had instead of the bad. She agrred and wanted the same. So for the last 5 days we were all on amicable terms. THE DAY COMES and she can't move out so we let her stay a day late, trusting her to pay us the extra money when she moved out. The final day came and she was suppose to pay us all of her bills she owed... Did she? You take a guess!... The ending of the week was obviously all a physade (however u spell that) to manipulate my roommate and I. It is what it is and we live and we learn but wow, I hope karma has a way getting back to people like that. Now I am not saying that I was 100 percent innocent for any of our fights but I can tell you this girl had some problems. Yeah I am not the perfect roommate, make a mess, have a dog but am I sane? Yes i think so... Is she? Eah......... She definitely did some shady shit.. Now, the reason I am sharing this with you is because I want all of us to be more aware of who we be-friend and who we trust. We need to learn from our mistakes, accept them and move forward. SIMPLE AS THAT! Yeah we make mistakes, who doesn't? Dwell and be negative or accept and be positive.
(side note: super forgiving and super trustworthy tends to get me in trouble)
I decided to write her an email saying that I did not want any more problems and I just wanted a successful move out, I wanted her to remember the good times we had instead of the bad. She agrred and wanted the same. So for the last 5 days we were all on amicable terms. THE DAY COMES and she can't move out so we let her stay a day late, trusting her to pay us the extra money when she moved out. The final day came and she was suppose to pay us all of her bills she owed... Did she? You take a guess!... The ending of the week was obviously all a physade (however u spell that) to manipulate my roommate and I. It is what it is and we live and we learn but wow, I hope karma has a way getting back to people like that. Now I am not saying that I was 100 percent innocent for any of our fights but I can tell you this girl had some problems. Yeah I am not the perfect roommate, make a mess, have a dog but am I sane? Yes i think so... Is she? Eah......... She definitely did some shady shit.. Now, the reason I am sharing this with you is because I want all of us to be more aware of who we be-friend and who we trust. We need to learn from our mistakes, accept them and move forward. SIMPLE AS THAT! Yeah we make mistakes, who doesn't? Dwell and be negative or accept and be positive.
Hoe #2- MONEY HUNGRY
Found her on Craigslist.. (enough said there).... She seemed a bit quiet at first but slowly became more likable and friendly as the time passed. I would describe her as a tough girl, money hungry, conceded, living off daddy kind of girl and a bitch. Of course silly me created what I thought was a friendship with her . Who would have known she was a psycho, beast like kind of girl. Moved in, and within only a short amount of time, she had just lost it. After our previous roommate decided she was going to move out, she then too decided it was fit to do just the same. Bitch flipped on all of us!... Became a total hoe and decided she hated us and was going to move out.. I think she gave us about a week.... She was rude and she was disrespectful, never had I met anyone like her as well. A week before this had happened, she had gotton sick because of what she said to be a poop eating flesh disease from my 8 month old baby chihuahua, Minnie Joy. She blamed her sickness because my dog wasn't potty trained yet. She decided to call the ASPECA or whoever they are to report our house as a bacteria filled or what not. OK MY DOG POOPED PEBBLES AND PEED DROPLETS IS THAT REALLY WHERE YOU GOT THIS DISEASE OR ARE YOU JUST A REALLY DIRTY WHORE?!??!@@
(now when I say a whore I mean that in the nicest way possible)
She turned into GODZILLA, no joke. She created one week of living hell. We had little time to find someone new. One night, my roommate and I decided that we needed to take pictures of her room pronto. When we asked politely a bunch off times and she rudely denied. While this confrontation goes on I snuck into her room to snap photos for Craigslist. SO WHAT!? She gave us less than a week to get someone to live in their room!! I DOUBT THAT IS INVASION OF PRIVACY WHEN It's in a situation like this. She was uncooperative for no reason. So, this is when the story gets juicy. She finds me taking photos of her room and she stomped down the hallway only to push me down and tell me to knock it off. (THE BITCH INSIDE OF ME WANTED TO TACKLE HER BUT..) I stood up and confronted her myself. She had absolutely no good explanation for her actions and at that moment I decided this was enough.
I got problems? YES... THEY GOT PROBLEMS? HELL YES, these girls got problems.
Always handle every confrontation with respect and ease. As much as we want to slap the crazy out of them, we can't. What I've learned to escape drama is too listen, respect and be honest.Always put yourself in the other person's shoes and recognize the things both parties are doing wrong. These girls definitely taught me a lot and in the end I thank them for teaching me many lessons this year.
Found her on Craigslist.. (enough said there).... She seemed a bit quiet at first but slowly became more likable and friendly as the time passed. I would describe her as a tough girl, money hungry, conceded, living off daddy kind of girl and a bitch. Of course silly me created what I thought was a friendship with her . Who would have known she was a psycho, beast like kind of girl. Moved in, and within only a short amount of time, she had just lost it. After our previous roommate decided she was going to move out, she then too decided it was fit to do just the same. Bitch flipped on all of us!... Became a total hoe and decided she hated us and was going to move out.. I think she gave us about a week.... She was rude and she was disrespectful, never had I met anyone like her as well. A week before this had happened, she had gotton sick because of what she said to be a poop eating flesh disease from my 8 month old baby chihuahua, Minnie Joy. She blamed her sickness because my dog wasn't potty trained yet. She decided to call the ASPECA or whoever they are to report our house as a bacteria filled or what not. OK MY DOG POOPED PEBBLES AND PEED DROPLETS IS THAT REALLY WHERE YOU GOT THIS DISEASE OR ARE YOU JUST A REALLY DIRTY WHORE?!??!@@
(now when I say a whore I mean that in the nicest way possible)
She turned into GODZILLA, no joke. She created one week of living hell. We had little time to find someone new. One night, my roommate and I decided that we needed to take pictures of her room pronto. When we asked politely a bunch off times and she rudely denied. While this confrontation goes on I snuck into her room to snap photos for Craigslist. SO WHAT!? She gave us less than a week to get someone to live in their room!! I DOUBT THAT IS INVASION OF PRIVACY WHEN It's in a situation like this. She was uncooperative for no reason. So, this is when the story gets juicy. She finds me taking photos of her room and she stomped down the hallway only to push me down and tell me to knock it off. (THE BITCH INSIDE OF ME WANTED TO TACKLE HER BUT..) I stood up and confronted her myself. She had absolutely no good explanation for her actions and at that moment I decided this was enough.
I got problems? YES... THEY GOT PROBLEMS? HELL YES, these girls got problems.
Always handle every confrontation with respect and ease. As much as we want to slap the crazy out of them, we can't. What I've learned to escape drama is too listen, respect and be honest.Always put yourself in the other person's shoes and recognize the things both parties are doing wrong. These girls definitely taught me a lot and in the end I thank them for teaching me many lessons this year.
3. MY PERSPECTIVE ON LIFE AT 23
Some of the things I have learned:
* We have one life to live so why not be happy? If we remind ourselves to be happy and positive, I think that there can be a positive change made in one's life. Everything could all change in a second and we should all be grateful for what we have. I mean if you actually think about one life, wouldn't you want to make it a happy one? Yes....... Most of you know that I am smiling energetic individual. One may even say crazy ?! But guess what? I am happy.... I know who I am and if you don't like me then don't be in my life... NO TIME FOR NON SENSE..... So as CRAZY as I may be, I know what I want and you should too.
(Story)
Senior year of High school my teacher told our class that he would give 100 points to each person that participated in the blood drive. I was quick to accept because I thought that we would only be giving a small amount of blood and who could resist 100 free points?! Later did I find out the blood amount was not so small..Well, yeah, so after giving blood I went in and out of consciousness, never completely fainted. My ears started to close, eyes started to get blurry, heart rate increased rapidly and I truly thought I was going to die. I laid in the nurses office for 4 hours just recovering from that attack. From that day forward I started experiencing panic attacks. It was then that I found out I could get panic attacks too and oh shit.....My family KINDA has a history of anxiety and panic attacks.. I KINDA DO TOO... They came wherever I would be at random points, consecutively throughout the day. THE WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD IS A PANIC ATTACK...... You feel helpless and depressed. I remember being at Barona Casino when I had a panic attack. I had to go sit in the car for an hour. My point is, life is too short to be unhappy. Experiencing something like a panic attack changed my perspective on life forever. I needed to be grateful for the good health I was given and for every ones health around me... THAT WAS DEFINITELY MY WAKE UP CALL.
Senior year of High school my teacher told our class that he would give 100 points to each person that participated in the blood drive. I was quick to accept because I thought that we would only be giving a small amount of blood and who could resist 100 free points?! Later did I find out the blood amount was not so small..Well, yeah, so after giving blood I went in and out of consciousness, never completely fainted. My ears started to close, eyes started to get blurry, heart rate increased rapidly and I truly thought I was going to die. I laid in the nurses office for 4 hours just recovering from that attack. From that day forward I started experiencing panic attacks. It was then that I found out I could get panic attacks too and oh shit.....My family KINDA has a history of anxiety and panic attacks.. I KINDA DO TOO... They came wherever I would be at random points, consecutively throughout the day. THE WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD IS A PANIC ATTACK...... You feel helpless and depressed. I remember being at Barona Casino when I had a panic attack. I had to go sit in the car for an hour. My point is, life is too short to be unhappy. Experiencing something like a panic attack changed my perspective on life forever. I needed to be grateful for the good health I was given and for every ones health around me... THAT WAS DEFINITELY MY WAKE UP CALL.
Drama vs no Drama
Happy vs Sad
Stressed vs Calm
Fight vs Talk it out
Happy vs Sad
Stressed vs Calm
Fight vs Talk it out
Life is constantly changing. If something isn't happening right now, it can and will be later. Everything we want in life can happen. Who says we have to be a genius to make millions? Who says I cant make millions? Anything is possible.
Honesty, gratitude, and acceptance are fundamental key for all of our lives. Accepting what is and making the best out of it, giving thanks for the great things we have in our own lives, being honesty with oneself and others. Most importantly, we need to love ourselves, flaws and all...
Favorite Feel Good Quotes:
* I ONLY ALLOW THAT WHICH IS GOOD INTO MY LIFE.
No one can depress you. No one can make you anxious. No one can hurt your feelings. No one can make you anything other than what you allow inside.
* "I myself am entirely made of flaws, stitched together with good intentions."
-UnknownA pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.”That which does not kill me makes me stronger (Nietzsche)
